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Only you know…..what fuels your minds,and your actions….and for what purpose.
I examine myself, before i write these words…man to man…but NOT…mind to mind.
We all make decisions… from need,or desire.
Our physical body…can be well,and satisfied….with a surprising small amount.
Our minds…are totally different,than our body.
I put geography,culture,religions,need,hunger,hopelessness,power,and purpose…in front of this message…..and behind our actions.
Freedom and peace,…maybe only be a world dream…but every breath on this planet,breaths this in hope.
We can adapt…with little physical needs~food, water and shelter.Its our minds,that we ALL…..battle with….the rich,the poor,…the powerless, the powerful.
From a point of view of experience,i have had it all.
We go through life…accepting,challenging….or changing it.Its a strange thing,perceiving things we dont have…and what is the value and cost of our efforts to gain….and where does it truly…satisfy.
Material possessions,and physical desires….are NEVER satisfied,thats WHY,we ALWAYS…want more.
I was caught up…with wanting more,getting more…wanting and getting, for many years. I realized what i have become…on the INSIDE ~ and only i, knew.
All that i had….was worthless,inside.
All that i had outside,was extra…and someone else…wanting it…ready to take it.Its a circle of DECEIT,false reality.
I am truly more satisfied,with less. Less material worth,and more love.
Power and possession…feeds greed and deceit…
Freedom and peace….feeds love….and contentment.
We have to step out of ourselves,examine our individual minds,…
to realize what is the end result.
What is power….if its without love?
Your not alone Sir…with the battle,in your mind.Your heart,has grown cold.
That 18 inches…between your mind and heart,Sir…
is your purpose in life…just like mine.
When was the last time,you separated your self from everything.I mean really,just you and yourself.We think the world needs us….we think we cant stop….whatever is occupying out time,or purpose. Well, our world,and purpose… will wait.
I urge you Sir,separate yourself for 24 hrs…put your next man in charge.
Have your personal guards within distance if you must….but not to fellowship,or see them.
Go to a favorite place….feed yourself,be yourself…be alone.Clear your mind.
This is for you…..no one else.
Let your mind be free…from all that you normally fill it with…this is your time….fill it with any…good memories of your youth…what did you have back then….what ever brought freedom and peace…at that time.Feel it,remember it?
Whatever personal freedom, and personal peace, your youth had…it is real.
Perhaps family or friends…places of comfort?
A hardened heart…still feels.Remember love….?
While there is still breath in a man….we CAN cling to what is good.How many mistakes have i made..? MANY Sir.
My personal cold heart,showed me…the end result….i would never be satisfied.
I realized…in my quiet time,alone…what and who i became….it was ugly…and i was going to die ugly,in it.
Was i, not worth more than this? Was life, not worth more than that?
It took more than 24 hrs…but the seed of hope, was planted.I knew then,it would grow or die…..with me in it.
My mind battled with “stuck” or “change”….to retreat to my old way of thinking…or to renew my mind….and be set free.
The lack of my possessions…was a matter of comfort.
The lack of my power….was a matter of love.
It was not easy…my head voices~ challenged every good thought, and every good action….but personal peace, is my fuel.
When my mind, came back to love…and good choices for ALL….my entire world was alive again.I viewed my fellow man as my equal….not as a puppet,because of my wealth and power….
I did not care what others thought….as long as i gained…by them or any other means…it took me six yrs to change…from seed to blossom.Some forgave me,some not….but at least….i am set free now…and aware of the damage i brought to others,no longer…damaging more. To be forgiven by some…..if far greater than none.
Call it anything you like…going soft…loving again…and my fellow man.
This is why Sir….i address this to us.To measure our wrongs….the world will always measure…
To measure or wrights….the world will,remember our choice of changes.
Let the past be the past…and those who want to “stay stuck” in it…century after century….
I see a man….Sir….who can change.
To die with new change, forgiveness and love….
nothing…..can compare.
The world is watching you Sir….we ALL can change….REGARDLESS,of our the past.